in June of 2016, I weighed 254 lbs and was miserable. I couldn’t sleep without snoring and waking everyone in the house. I had acid reflux, and/or heartburn everyday! I couldn’t tie my shoes without running out of breath because I was mashing my massive belly. I had eczema very bad, and was miserable. I
felt major shame for how I felt and looked. I knew I was unhealthy. My doctor told me if I didn’t get my blood pressure down, she would put me on medication. When I found a doctor to really help me lose weight, I never once thought, “I can’t stop eating corn, or drinking soda, or whatever” I said to myself, “I have to do this. There is no option. I have to lose weight. I have to eat healthy. I have to quit the bad unhealthy habits.” Amber (my wife) said something very powerful to me, “Its not that YOU are unhealthy, your habits are.” I had to change my habits to change my body. Whenever I felt my resolve getting weak, I would think, “I have nothing to go back to. I can’t live like I did.”
I have decided I am going even further. I am going to be healthier than i ever have. I’m not just trying to lose weight now, I want to be healthy. In my mind and in my body. I want to be a good steward of the body that Jesus gave me. I want to be a good steward of the mind Jesus gave me. so many people focus on just wanting to look good. Which is fine, I want to look good also, but more importantly, I want to feel good. I want to be strong physically and mentally. I want to be effective in the things that I do. I want to empower others. I want a strong mind.
I refuse to feel stuck. I refuse to feel like I’m in a vicious cycle. That things will never get better. The truth is, I can do anything. I can be as strong as I want. I can make a huge difference, a huge impact. I will not keep bumping up against the same wall. I will break through the wall. If I have to use power tools, or just a sledgehammer, I will break through.
I refuse to even talk like it is impossible to achieve great things. I refuse to even talk like I am going to go through this life only feeling pain and being miserable and unhappy. I refuse to give my joy to others and then accuse them of stealing it.
jareddoran 